Running Spa With Anxiety

Here is a fun fact that most people don’t know / I have hidden most of my life. I have severe social anxiety. This is hard for most to believe because I’ve worked in customer service my entire life. Just because you are good at something doesn’t mean there isn’t issues with it. People don’t see the behind the scenes, the forcing yourself into situations. At one of my jobs the owner worked a lot with me, not about not having anxiety but about faking confidence basically. The first lone was projecting my voice so that I could be heard in the very large store. I was so soft spoken this exercise physically hurt me and I wanted to cry. It took months before I was able to project my voice that far. I struggled with eye contact and by struggled, I mean I couldn’t make eye contact at all. We worked on looking at people’s lower ear lobe so that it was the perception of eye contact without making me completely uncomfortable. These tricks would serve me well over the coming years. I stay in my element, where I’m comfortable if I venture outside of that I must prepare, prepare, prepare. Very rarely, truthfully not ever do I go into strange situations by myself. My husband has the gift of the gab he really makes up for my own awkwardness. Throughout my own business we tried to make as much of the process as we can automated. We steer towards email or text mainly for anxiety purposes. But also, response times, I can quickly reply to a text or email between clients or services, however returning a telephone call is an unknown length of time. Therefore, I don’t until the end of the day where I can commit time in case it becomes a lengthy conversation My anxiety isn’t something I talk about often it’s a trait I don’t like about myself but it’s also something I’ve had to lie with my entire life. This is one of the main reasons you won’t find me doing Instagram “live” like the other businesses I couldn’t imagine more of an uncomfortable hell. I’m on to procrastinate going out for coffee or lunch with friends. Those who know me best just usually show up with coffee. Not going to lie even posting this blog makes me anxious. Restarting the business since the fire I promised I wouldn’t get in my own way I’d start doing the things that scared me. Push away the doubts and worries of not being good enough, if people would like me, what people would think. I was just going to do it. To get to where I wanted my business to go. These blog posts were a huge part of that. Sharing my thoughts with the entire internet. Especially after the fire because my thought process can be scattered at best, depending on the day, and especially in times of stress. To hell with anxiety, I ripped off that Band-Aid and here we are the good the bad and the ugly. This is us